I remember now

I remember now why I don't wake up early my brow wiped clean of sleepiness a worldly feeling of unshakable wakefulness I can't sleep to hide my pain I can't avoid work since I've nothing better to do and still from the moment I wake I dream of you I want to cry but the darkness has passed and all that's left is the harsh light of morning striking down brightly happy despite me and all I can do  is glare and feel empty watch my hands and feet get cold as the warmth leaves me as the sunlight won't relieve me  of my burden I feel like I've been opened emptied, and poured out for a meal been swift devoured and now I'm thrown away no lucky breaks for me this day will pass as others do again, I'll sigh and dream of you and wait and scream and hope and dream and feel so utterly empty Mark Burton December 23rd, 2005, 10:20 A.M.